Thursday, August 31
promises are just lies.
all promises will come to a end eventually.
end up, i'll be staring into air blankly.
nothing is forever.
i'm just being to naive to believe in fairytale-like-love.
i've fallen into a deep deep trap.
so deep that i can't even see the top;
and even pull myself up.
in the end,
after everything.
it just came back to square one.
again.
i'm tired of everything.
what we could have been, 8/31/2006 11:48:00 PM.
Wednesday, August 30
it was din's birthday last monday.
we bought him a cake.
tried to keep it from him.
but he found out in the end.
sighs.
but aniway;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY hon. (:
hope you like the cake
and the surprise we gave you. (:
hugs.
teachers' day performance today.
hon and guys from 4/4 and 4/5 performed.
dey did so well.
so proud of dem. (:
oh ya,
he's so HOT.
omg omg. (:
feeling kinda down today.
deppordsaetym;
always look on the BRIGHT side, ZHENYING.
what we could have been, 8/30/2006 06:03:00 PM.
Saturday, August 26
okay.
this is the second time i've been blogging the same stuffs.
blogger is so lousy.
after spending almost an hr typing all my stuffs.
it just disappear in a click.
WTF?
in the end, i slept at 2am.
and i was late for tuition today.
kuku.
alright..
back to my topic.
night lessons was extremely fun.
chatting our asses out;
sharing tibits;
running here and dere;
seeing him. (:
i do agree night lessons are scary too.
especially when we talk abt spooky stuffs. ):
and also when people say dey saw "stuffs"
omg.
besides that,
it was fun lah.
and we took photos..
before and after night study. (:
i've been on a mission recently.
sleeping less than 4 hrs a day.
keep doing until my fingers going to have blisters.
but, i tink it's all worth. (:
time is really running out.
3 more months to the exams.
i guess i'll miss everything after i leave.
i will miss everyone in the skool.
i will miss every sec 4;
i will miss weeyang;
i will miss my MS CANDICE TEOK;
i will miss my hon;
i will miss the aunties in the canteen;
i will miss coach;
i will miss the bball court;
i will miss coach;
i will miss the bball court;
i will miss the minced meat noodles;
i will miss the waterchest nut water;
i will miss the fun and laughters.
cries.
what we could have been, 8/26/2006 06:53:00 PM.
Friday, August 25
alright,
since blogger is so lousy.
i shall blog 2 parts to blog all my photos.
ARGH.
remember i told you guys,
my ah boy went to the vet?
LOL. his pics. (:
he damn di siao lorr.
delibrately knock and bang against everything.
"KING KING KONG KONG."
hehes.
bringing him to the vet on sunday again.
oh ya, i editted some photos. (:
with only microsoft powerpoint.
give me some comments, readers.
everything above is editted by me. (:
evcept this.
tis one is gen edit one.
thanks gen. (:
what we could have been, 8/25/2006 09:23:00 PM.
dad sounded shock when i called him @ 3pm;
telling him i've reach home.
LOL.
im just so GUAI today loh. (:
//pat on my own shoulder. ((:
woots.
i shall go sleep.
haven been sleeping for 4 hours per day.
yst was worst.
alright...
I"M BLOGGING TONIGHT. (:
telling him i've reach home.
LOL.
im just so GUAI today loh. (:
//pat on my own shoulder. ((:
woots.
i shall go sleep.
haven been sleeping for 4 hours per day.
yst was worst.
alright...
I"M BLOGGING TONIGHT. (:
what we could have been, 8/25/2006 03:25:00 PM.
Sunday, August 20
went to c the doctor today.
suffering from flu, sore throat and cough.
and, my O level english oral exams is on tue.
ARGH.
also brought ah boi to see the vet too.
he has some skin infection on his neck.
the vet say it probably started with an ant bite.
but he kept on scratching.
therefore leading to this.
BIRD him.
it took 3 ppl to hold him down so that the other doctor could apply medication on him.
need ard 5 ppl to hold him down completely.
i heard him whine;
heard him scream.
my tears dropped when i see him in such pain.
i'm such a EMO-queen. =\
he cried when we were on our way to the vet.
i tink he thought we're going to give him away.
SADS. ):
things are getting better for me and him.
at least i know how he feels.
(:
buck up zhenying!
he WILL be dere for you.
for sure.
(:
what we could have been, 8/20/2006 12:01:00 AM.
Friday, August 18
i think i've made up my mind.
making a decision.
hais.
what we could have been, 8/18/2006 11:42:00 PM.
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I'll never know what the future brings
we'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
we'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms
i wan you to treat me differently.
make me feel special.
i know you can do it.
pls.
what we could have been, 8/18/2006 09:21:00 PM.
Wednesday, August 16
everything is disheartening me.
i wan you back onto my track.
i'm such a loser.
i couldn't bring myself to pass the letter to him.
:(
what we could have been, 8/16/2006 11:14:00 PM.
Monday, August 14
felt so fortunate that night.
having you guys ard me.
joking ard;
screaming ard.
me and the birthday girl.
she is gorgeous that night.
in that brown dress and the princess hairband. (:
THAT night.
- squeezing thru crowds ;
- jumping high up to find empty spaces ;
- screaming like a crazy ass ;
- climbing up and down to find the best place ;
- sweat like a ass ;
- FUCK that guy who used his **** to touch my butt ;
- pretty fireworks. its all worth it. (:
- BIG red blazer which covers me from top to toe ; :))
- eating disfigured choc cake with CARDBOARDS ;
- laughters and screams.
everything is worth it as the pretty fireworks being shot up.
i'll be the freezer to cool you down when you melt.
i'll be catching you if you faint.
AHHH!! :)))))
what we could have been, 8/14/2006 11:03:00 PM.
Sunday, August 13
i'm sick. :(
i try to blog tml night.
sorriie guys.
i miss the BIG blazer which covers me from top to toe. :)
what we could have been, 8/13/2006 08:39:00 PM.
Friday, August 11
anyway,
i gort B3 for O'level chinese. ((:
should i retake? hmmph.
ur smell still lies beneath it. :)
what we could have been, 8/11/2006 11:57:00 PM.
i watched click today.
its nice. RECOMMENDED.
bloody funny in the beginning.
but cried like an ass in the end.
but its kind of funny watching
1) the dogs fucking the toy duck. =x
2) the way he humiliate his neighbour.
but.. its quite sad in the end la.
all right.
i shall not reveal animore.
in case you guys wanna watch it,
YOURSELF. (:
tuition tml afternoon.
celebrating pingy's advanced birthday @ nydc after that. ((:
love that girl so much LAH. :)) :)) :)) :))
a lil note for euu w/o you noticing. :)
SMILES. :)
what we could have been, 8/11/2006 11:25:00 PM.
Thursday, August 10
i aint the real princess in ur heart afterall.
what we could have been, 8/10/2006 02:01:00 AM.
it isn't easy.
it isn't easy as wot you've done.
it isn't easy by juz clicking the word, "delete."
life isn't the same w/o you.
you're movin on.
i'm not.
everytime my mom ask abt you.
i could only hold on to my tears and say,
"ohh.. he's busy with studies. he's just busy."
it isn't easy.
i may be laughed at,
for this contradiction of mine.
but we know deep in our hearts;
those memories;
isn't that easy to forget like wot you've did.
i've been too pampered by you.
i've lose all the privileges i once have.
i dun understand how you can move on,
just like that.
seriously, i can't manage a life w/o you.
i'm trying so hard to forget you.
pls,
take away those memories;
those repeating images.
i wanna overcome a life w/o you.
like how you did.
wind, take me with you
; flying thru clouds and out of the world.
what we could have been, 8/10/2006 01:18:00 AM.
Tuesday, August 8
ta dah~
finally changed my blog skin.
give me comments everyone. (:
i forced myself to finish it by today.
cuz i dun wan to leave things half done / undone.
again.
half day for us today. (:
but strict teachers spoil the mood,
and of cuz, the day.
high-ness and screams could be heard.
i've never been so high before.
i love the feeling of everyone squeezing together.
and take photo. ((:
manage to get my cert and vouchers today.
oscar award.
sweaty palms, shaky hands, and pumping of heart.
LOL.
i nearly faint. =\
9 August tml.
HAPPY 41th BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!!
repeating images appearing in my mind.
repeating images appearing in my mind.
i've lost my all my privileges.
what we could have been, 8/08/2006 11:40:00 PM.
Friday, August 4
not been able to come online on tue, wed and thurs.
due to the tiring night study.
pls understand me, everyone. (:
lots of things happen recently.
and its reali affecting my mood.
i dun understand human.
i reali dun.
i've decided not to let things affect me. :)
ARGH.
i tink all i have to do is to study real hard nw.
motivate me, someone /something.
tat green guy made me fall hard. (:
what we could have been, 8/04/2006 11:52:00 PM.
Tuesday, August 1
i'm juz too tired to edit my new blog skin.
night study session sucks.
the noises, the squeezy chairs, everything.
i went 85 with mama and daddy after study session.
after crossing the road to 85,
we heard a brake sound followed by a bang.
we turned to find out a bangala being knocked down.
by a car.
the bangala immediately took his bike and continue to cycle.
and the driver should stop and check the bangala wot.
BUT,
he/she did not.
tat bastard juz accelerate and drove off like tat.
FUCK him/her.
tat bastard drove so fast that no one could see the number plate.
and the poor bangala had injuries.
at his knee cap and elbow.
he had scratches and his bike was crooked.
poor him,
come singapore work and den kanna accident.
the bastard still never stop to check things out.
EVERYTHING of euu makes me hate you.
if you think thats the way to make me reali hate you,
den euu are SO WRONG.
what we could have been, 8/01/2006 11:31:00 PM.
